Carbon Based Life In A Digital World

It feels odd to be blogging again.

Wed, 11 Feb 2009 08:00:25 GMT

Funny, I was blogging before it was a buzzword. I recently went old school and started writing with a pencil and paper and enjoyed the sublime transition of my thoughts to words. The nostalgia reminds me of a time when I actually had a life instead of my current state of survival. My fortune cookie...actually I have never been fond of fortune cookies and I am more apt to trust my horoscope than believing than 6 words inside a piece of candy. So as a Libra, I shall continue to have faith that things will balance out and not stress out and continue of the path I think is best for me. That path in 2009 has to be growth, not simply change. I can't settle for change anymore but I have to keep up a steady pace of progress that will allow me to gain a new perspective on life.

This is the background music in my life right now and it is drowning out all the ambient noise.

Yeah, I will remember this year.

Sun, 31 Aug 2008 22:38:05 GMT

What up Mideon!

My YouTube video has hit over 100K views!

Wed, 20 Aug 2008 21:40:31 GMT

Happy Festivus for the Rest of Us!

Tue, 25 Dec 2007 10:22:03 GMT

Merry Christmas yo!

I love the hell out of Zero 7. Oh. Hello!

Tue, 06 Jun 2006 06:54:55 GMT

Zero 7Simple Things.
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Wed, 05 Oct 2005 17:50:41 GMT

Hello 30

Photo Blog cuz I'm to lazy to friggin type

Fri, 23 Sep 2005 13:49:56 GMT

Holy Crap, I made it to the mountains for once. Vegas Baby. Also the first time someone pissed in the same bed I was sleeping in. #21 crossed of the list of things to do before I die. Hot Air Balloon ride w/best friend Qball. Longmont,CO Jeepers Creepers, where did ya get those Peepers? Trouble... Then I go visit her in Romania fuckitall. What next?

Mon, 20 Jun 2005 03:17:43 GMT

So I sit playing some NCAA '05. I look over and notice a bird about to
hop into my house from the balcony. Stealthy kitty is sitting on the couch
on the balcony. She attacks, bird flies inside the house and kitty pounces.
She carries around the bird for about 5 minutes before it breaks loose and flies away.
Damn good cat.

$15 ticket because I was 15 inches out of the line.
Fuck that.

P.S. A Happy Fathers Day Fuck You Dad!

=^.^=

Tue, 14 Jun 2005 07:52:29 GMT

=)
Saw Digable Planets at the Fox tonight, was pretty sweet.
Burned my first DVD tonight, 900GB of HD space to fill up next!
Finally launched two game servers. Running the Battlefield 2 demo
right now, fv.freonsmurf.com and sh.freonsmurf.com.
Long time dream come true right there.
Hired a part-time admin to help me with some network stuff.
I have a new girlfriend, and she is a into the computer shit as well.
Wearing pants four sizes smaller than the ones I had 6 months ago.
Once again I found a way to light the fire within.

Hello change my old friend.

Wed, 08 Jun 2005 01:46:43 GMT

I am tired of my current life. Good thing for me I can easily adapt to change. Even better, its something I am good at. So, alot of good stuff is gonna happen. Fucking rainbows and critters that shit gold. =^.^=

Mon, 06 Jun 2005 08:09:16 GMT

Meet Chipee. About 10-16 weeks old female kitten.
My ex is going back to Hungary for good and I wanted
to keep the cat as some sort of... I don't know.
When she told me was leaving I was like, alright gimme the fuckin cat.
I am a not a cat person, but I wasn't a guinea pig person either a few months ago.
The cat rocks my face, nuff said.
The RL drama update is postponed.
Tune back next week!

Family expands, I now have a kitty cat.

Tue, 31 May 2005 07:31:04 GMT

See that big ass brown cabient? That is me.
The guys in the picture represent life.
What happpens next?

American Male

Fri, 06 May 2005 04:45:14 GMT

I have 8 Guinea pigs. The two moms had 3 babies each.
I had a girlfriend for a brief while. It is over now and I have the scars to prove it.
Lost some more weight, I need to get back on the gym or b-ball plan.
Car is almost done, the neon is so purty.
Got a video camera now, next step is setting up the dvd burner.
Travel is coming, not sure where I am going but I gotta go somewhere.
My best friend moved from Longmont to Boulder.
I still have so much computer shit to do I put on hold.
I want to take a summer class.
Why do I feel so alone? I know I have family but I don't feel any connection.
I think I need to see a shrink or some wonderful seasme Street character than can explain everything to me in a sentence that rhymes.

Have a drama free weekend!

Sat, 09 Apr 2005 01:35:51 GMT

I don't want you to give it all up
and leave your own life collecting dust
and I don't want you to feel sorry for me
you never gave us a chance to be

And I don't need you to be by my side
and tell me that everything's all right
I just wanted you to tell me the truth
you know I'd do that for you

So why are you running away?
why are you running away?

I did enough to show you that I
was willing to give and sacrifice
and I was the one who was lifting you up
when you thought your life had had enough
and when I get close you turn away,
there's nothing that I can do or say
so now I need you to tell me the truth
you know I'd do that for you

So why are you running away?
why are you running away?

Is it me? Is it you?
nothing that I can do
to make you change your mind

Is it me? Is it you?
nothing that I can do
is it a waste of time?

Is it me? Is it you?
nothing that I can do
to make you change your mind

So why are you running away?
why are you running away?
(what is it I have to say?)
so why are you running away?
(to make you admit you're afraid)
why are you running away?

Tue, 05 Apr 2005 00:37:15 GMT

My fucking guinea pig is preggers.

I lost 10 more pounds. 20 total lost in 5 weeks.

Dating some one who is... Still trying to figure that one out.

Colorado is fucking beautiful in the spring & summer.

Tue, 29 Mar 2005 20:34:08 GMT

View Poll: Blind date is getting to attached...

real deep shit

Mon, 28 Mar 2005 09:44:49 GMT

Damn.

I found out around January 15 that my mom comitted suicide.

I orderd a extra copy of the completed death certifcate and ordered sent to my job.

I remember when I opened the envelope. I expected the cause of death to say heat attack, like the doctors at the ER assumed.
I was going to make a copy of it to send to the insurance company. I looked down and say the cause of death was checked as suicide.

Here I am sitting at work and this shit is dropped on me. Fucking two months after the godamn funeral.

My mind is so fucked right now.

I have been partying for three weeks straight, putting all other shit aside.

The only thing that has been consistent is my fucking diet.

I don't even talk to my family anymore, I never really felt close to them so ....

I don't know.

Then I have the oppurtinity to hook up with a chick I could only dream about 4 months ago.

I am really considering find a therapist and taking some sessions.

I have to deal with this, I should do it while the wound is still fresh.

I was just thinking about her, and she never really said goodbye to me.

So many questions that I can't find an answer for.

I can't do it alone, I do have some friends that I can talk to. I do have shoulders that I can cry on.
It helps for sure, but who do I call on sundays? I always use to talk to my mom on those days.

The void in my life, sucks. I would trade every penny I have, every thing I wasted money on in the last two months, everything. Everything to have her back.

Its funny, I have always found a to motivate myself. I would always say it could be worse. I could be born in a third world country or spend my life in a wheelchair or something. But now the silver lining inthe clouds is harder to find.....

Sat, 19 Mar 2005 21:05:32 GMT

wow. just wow.

...So last night I go out with my best friend Q-ball. He asked this girl Christine out a few times and I coerced him ask her if she had a friend. Lo and behold she has a friend and all of a sudden I am going on a blind date.

So the girls & Q meet up at my place and we start boozing. My blind dates name was Slyvia. Young latina, no kids and a little chunky. Given the size of my ass, I ain't frontin on a girls weight. I was just feeling good and I wanted to see how much game I had.

I started earlt and peppered her with compliments all night. I made sure to keep some kind of body contact all night long. It was cool though, we naturally hit it off. I just felt comfortable being able to talk to her. All the practice with ho's and being a sleazy ass man whore paid off. Her friend and Q-ball did not really hit it off and she kept trying to cock block. I seriously has to anti-cock block her friend. Why do girls do that shit? If I see a friend having fun, back the fuck up and let them have fun. Don't interrupt with your drunken bullshit "hehehe remeber when I fell at that club when they played this *******SMACK******

Yeah. So anyway, we go to a bar and get a starter drink and head to Stir. We get there early and get a VIP table downstairs. I get to 1st base in the first hour there. The rest of the night I made sure I kept my attention and hands on here and didn't get distracted by all the other hot ass around.

By the time we leave we are both diggin each other. Slighty buzzed but not a drunken hookup, know what I mean? Anyway, I light up the blunt and the last-call stoner circle forms. Always so cool smokin ween in boulder like that. Everyone is friendly and you meet people more fucked up than you.

So we go home and I lost my fuckin keys. Actually, I never took them out of the apartment instead I locked them inside like a dumb ass. We tell the girls to relax in the pool area and Q & I go search the bar for the keys. No keys, so I call a locksmith and he is on the way. We walk back into the pool area.

I see two piles of clothes on the floor. Both ladies are in the pool but ass naked.

God damn.

Takes me about 7 seconds to disrobe and jump in the pool.

Sigh. Lemme tell ya folks. Heated pool, 3:30 AM, butt ass naked, my best friend and his chick and me making out with a blind date?

I could cry, it felt sooooooo good.

So q-ball dissapears, the locksmith arrives, more weed is smoked. Christine, the one Q-ball was trying to get, wasn't feelin him. She goes to sleep on the couch and Slyvia goes to my bedroom.

=)

Shit eating grin much?

Alot of hand contact warms her up and proceeds to heavy petting and dry humping.
Now, I could of fucked but I wanted to keep it cool. I really like making ladies feel good and taking care of them.
So I ate some sweet shaved pussy for about 15 minutes and then we cuddled up like rabbits in a snowstorm.

Next morn, wakeup and more of the good stuff. I realize I half to walk to get my car. I see some old homeless buddies in the park, I stop by and smoke a blunt with them, have a sip of fine PBR in the morning and give them $40 to get a real meal before they get all boozed up again.

I drive home and realize that Q-ball aint coming back like he said and I half to take care of these two ladies. We go to the Orginal Pancake House and them I drove them back to longmont.

thats some fuckin shit or what?

.Swimming with Sharks.

Fri, 18 Mar 2005 15:44:41 GMT

I think my brain & body has finally recovered from the weekend.

Wait a minute...no it has not. I was supposed to blog this on monday and here it is fuckin friday again.

Quik & Dirty Update.
Went out last weekend, real shit was on Saturday. Went to a friends b-day party at Trilogy. After that when to a kick ass after party
in north boulder. During this my friend Q-ball tripped his ass off on some very nice clean liquid lsd. I played the guardian during his peak, then tripped balls myself at 2AM that night. I have tripped about 20 times total in my life and this was the best lsd trip I have ever fuckin had. God damn it was fucking amazing!!!!

Sunday & Monday is a haze of recov ery blunts and pancakes. Somewhere along the way I bought the dopest painting and the largest lava lamp you have ever seen.

Also named the guinea pigs finally, Valkryie & Isis after two greek goddess. My spelling is jacked but fukit~~~la

Went back to Idaho Springs with a different gir. Rented a abin this time. fuck that place is sooooo nice. Stopped in blackhawk on the way home the next orning. What a depressing shithole compared to Vegas.

Mountain driving still freaks me the fuck out.

Colorado is such a beautiful state.

Since my mom died, I have no place I can truly call home.. No lighthouse in the dark to guide my ass.

Why have I always been nice to people only to be treated like shit? Whoever said that there is good and bad karma is a fucking liar.
A person just has to do what they believe.

Met a few more brothers this week.. Heh, is the past week I have met like 8 more black folk. I need this. Whitey gets under my skin in this state.

Why do you white motherfuckers stare at me so goddamn much? That is some rude shit. Why am I always the only black person in the room when I go somewhere? And fuck you you simple minded fuck, I don't play football.

Fun Fact!
I have never been in a fistfight in my life!

So yea, if you read that crap getyourself a glass of water.
Thats some of my baggae for ya.

fin.

Sat, 12 Mar 2005 10:09:29 GMT

Went to Stir tonight for the first time. Hip-Hop DJ.
Asked twelve ladies to dance with me and eight of them said yes.
Danced my ass off, kissed some girl twice, shamelesly dryhumped atleast two of them.
Met about 6 brothers, good shit there dog.
And setup a possible date with a waitress from the strip club.

Tomorrow night looks like Round Midnite or Trilogy for more dancing.

/spank

Wed, 09 Mar 2005 21:18:26 GMT

I beat my personal trainer at 24-hour fitness in a game of
one vs one basketball today. The score? 7-0. w00t~

Tue, 08 Mar 2005 14:36:52 GMT

Pet Questions for Kaura!

This is the setup.

They are two females, three weeks old.

I have never owned guiena pigs before.

Whats the best way to "tame" them? Grab em and hold em? Do they respond to voice and tone changes?

They have that entire room butbut they still sit in the corner, still nervous I guess?

Any toys or treats they like? Fresh fruit & Alfafa?

How social are they? What are they gonna be like later?

Mon, 07 Mar 2005 23:25:10 GMT

Waist size down one inch.
Bought two Guniea Pigs today.
Met a girl this weekend and we have a date this friday.
My car stero is so loud I can set off car alarms.
Went to Idaho Springs w/ a friend last night on a whim. Outdoor hotub is the fucking shit.

Sun, 06 Mar 2005 11:20:27 GMT

Ok

Fuckin A.

Round Midnight is the fucking spot.

Mutli-ethnic hot dance spot in boulder? Fuck Yea!

This weekend has been fucking rocking so far.

Oh, and the bustop is one hell of a titty bar.

Thu, 03 Mar 2005 00:38:27 GMT

While at my old job today, I changed the homepage of a much maligned ex co-worker to goatse.